I don't know how it ends now I'm older
But I hope it makes sense when it's over
No I never thought I'd live, make it out like that
You were everything I had once
Said I'd leave it all behind and I'd never look back
You were everything I had once

It was days like this where I felt most alone
Where my head got sick from the light on my phone
Tryna tell myself that it wasn't my fault
And it wasn't my fault
Tryna run so far that you hide from yourself
Let your brain play tricks till you figure it out
It was days like this, I'd be down for a while
Ain't been down for a while

Yeah I used to look up and I hate it
But the rain, I look up and I miss it
Hope my family knows I never meant to leave them
Think about it every time I write my feelings
Tell myself that everything is for a reason
Is it really thought or is it how I see it?

It was days like this where I felt most alone
Where my head got sick from the light on my phone
Tryna tell myself that it wasn't my fault (it's not your fault)
And it wasn't my fault

Tryna run so far that you hide from yourself
Let your brain play tricks till you figure it out
It was days like this, I'd be down for a while (fuck em)
Ain't been down for a while