C
I'm afraid of the way I live my life.
    Am
I'm afraid of the way I don't.
    F                      G                C
I'm afraid of the things I want to do but I won't.
    C
I'm afraid of God.
                              A
I'm afraid to believe and I'm afraid of all the loved ones that I've made leave.
    F                          G       C
I'm afraid that my dog doesn't love me anymore.

[Verse 1]
    C                                      Am
I'm afraid of the social laziness that let Kitty Genovese die.
        F                 G                    C
And I'm afraid of the mob mentality that makes otherwise normal people go blind.
    C                                              Am
I'm afraid of the way that the world works and I'm afraid of the words in my notebooks.
    F                        G           C
I'm afraid that you all know that I am a pervert.

[Chorus 1]
                F                         G
But the big red bird that lives under the city
        Am          C                          F
doesn't give a damn about me and it dies every night.
           Dm
By burning alive.

[Verse 2]
    C
I'm afraid of my grandfathers cancer.
        Am
And I'm afraid of my mom's dying arm.
    F                        G                C
I'm afraid that I've somehow caused my family harm.
    C                                       Am
I'm afraid that the ones I love won't have enough.
    F                      G                Am
I'm afraid that the ones I love won't have enough.

[Bridge]
     F            G                Am
It's harder to be yourself than it is to be anybody else.
F               G                Am                     F
I wish I were a little less of a coward but the big red bird that lives under
    G
the city
        Am                                     F
doesn't give a damn about me and it dies every night.
              Dm
So I bought a knife.
       C
I am a knife.